Journal Entry: Thu Aug 7, 2014, 8:23 AM
I know that it's been a while since I wrote anything and I know that I'm not uploading a lot of photos right now and I don't have any excuse for it. I've just been in my own little bubble for a while and I've lost all my motivation and inspiration during that time that I've been a bit off from the internet. I'm feeling a bit better and I'm working on my mental health. I don't want it to be a bother for me, even if it's pretty much controlling my life.
I've been waiting for an appointment at a place where they can see how much I can work during a day and I've been waiting since April. It's pretty stressful to wait for a letter to this place and I've been a bit of a mess since I got the information and I'm pretty much beaten up by the fact that I might not be able to work because of my ADD and I think I'm the only one that feels that way. I kind of feel useless and I hate it and I get to hear that I'm lazy all the time, even if I'm not.
During this period of time I haven't been to the zoo that often. I'm going to a zoo next week and I haven't visited my local zoo in ages, but I will go back there at the end of this month. I just wanted to update you about the reason for bad updates. I will also start to add a big watermark across portraits of animals, because people have been sharing my photos through dA and tumblr and re-edited the photos with a tacky yellowish tone and they've deleted both my watermark and my link, which bothers me a lot and I might just be overreacting, but that's just how I am.